Well, I think that I have arrived at a bit of a personal epiphany in regards to my attitude towards my personal well-being/health and life outlook. I have realized that ‘fixing’ my life is not within my own capabilities. In order to survive spiritually and emotionally, it has become apparent that I must hang onto a faith and hope that relies upon possibilities and realities unseen. I must also continue to affirm a healthy love towards God, myself and family & friends. This is very much a matter of survival for me at this point because resuurecting my health and financial situation is very much beyond my own personal resources and reasoning. Without this deep sense of trust and faith, I will self-destruct emotionally. My future and my security rest with Jesus.